12:00 AM - Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Today, i went out to make my mind release from thinking. I went to town with my friends. All the way to town, i kept thinking of him. I miss going out with him. haish. I feel so down these days. All in my mind was just him. nothing else. I cant stop my tears from falling down my cheeks. I know its no use for me to cry for him but people just dun understand how i really feel. I tell you how. It feels like half of your is gone and will never come back. Its painful if it really doesn't come back. hmm. How i wish he will come back to me. in the sense that he'll be contacting me again. haish. His features will always run in my mind no matter how i tried to remove it. Only god knows how i really feel. I may look happy from the outside. Laughing my ass off but the inside is still painful as it feels from the start. hmm. That's why love is so painful. I miss him so much! I just need a message or a call from him. That will be enough for me. I wont hope do much from him as he already had a girlfriend. At first, he told me not to stop our friendship but now what happen? He's the one who stop contacting me. That's why now i feel sad and at the same time disappointed. Now, its hard for me to trust words from a guy. If i trust so much, i'll be in pain in the end. haish):
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